scary feeling appear again!!!

Today is Wednesday again....!!time passed so fast..we went for a crab restaurant in kepong yesterday with a gang of "weird combination" of frenzzz...HAHA~~~:P
Actually yest shud be a nice day for me.I went to Sunway Pyramid wf my fren in the noon, we hv a nice lunch and also window shopping. But unfortunately it is a rainny day again, it is so jam on the way bek to home lol. I planned to go to Selayang Bank to get bek my car card before we went to Sunway Mall...Haizzzz, but im not smart enuf lol, coz i cant get the way to reach the destiation,finally i decided to give up, let's my dad help me to finish this duty on next week..heheheeee.
But at night i felt quite down due to some reasons...not im making myself down 1,juz dunno why my heart and brain will b so uncontrollable lol! Once i meet or pass through any places which i alwaz used in the past 3 years, i still will think alot n alot....A feeling of scary popped out from my mind and heart!!! it is a horrible and torturing feelings, my eyes keep looking at the junction, and from the bottom of heart, im telling myself tat :"please, i wish to leave this place,please dun send me bek to the place after the dinner, i juz hope that i can run away from this place forever,plz dun catch me bek to the scary place!" Incident already happened for a years d, y all this feelings r still sticking with me, when will this feeling successfully leave me alone???HAIZZZ....so useless lol me
I tot i will be better after we drove away from the junction...but when i reach home, another unhappy moment again...Blaming n scolding happened again,meeting someone i dun even hope to see anymore on MSN.
i meet a good Question, a Q asking about :"who is much more important between Ex and Frenz!" ...thanx to those who gv me a great answer and the answer is oso the 1 same with wat i get from my mind...."Ex is a past while frenz is present and also future forever, tat's wat we said FRIENDSHIP FOREVER "!!!!!
Every1 telling me to b more cruel since he is not awake oso....there will be no endings if im stil continue to be so soft...But i alwaz think that to hv a fren better than to hv an enermy...But now i found out that my thinking is totally wrong d, is rili the time for me to be strong n cruel d....